(((MOONKIN))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. I just wanted to say it is okay to feel depressed from time to time, and if the Depression is taking over your life thenit is time to get help for yourself, which you are doing. It will take time at this point to get to the main root of yur issues since you have been so isolated for so long. Just try to hang in there and do the best that you can do with your dpression at this time. Journaling is good to help you understand what you are going through at this time. Opening the door of isolation is hard in the beginning and it is more important than ever to tell the truth to get the help you need at this time. PM anytime if you wish. Takd care. Soidhonia