Mine goes back and forth. Sometimes, like when depression 'just happens', I tend to feel like I'm a freakin' loser who will never amount to anything which then leads to suicidal thinking.

On the other hand, when depression is triggered by something, for example my alcohol withdrawals back in 2007, I tend to focus on the cause of the depression. In this example the self-hatred was caused by ruminating on my actions the last few years and how my drinking had ruined my life.