'I found there is a clear choice to make on what feelings I chose to have in my life - I could choose love and concern for my kids or I could choose obsessive anger towards my ex who hasn't really thought about me for a long time. I send you hugs - this stuff hurts so much.'

This sentence helps so much, even though it's simple I'm going to remember it for a long time.
I've been going through hell the last week imagining all the scheming and feeling so foolish. Last night I decided to confront her to try and and get more truths out of her. She stuck to her story very well but I woke up this morning like a weight had been lifted. Either she's lying or telling the truth, none of it matters. If I discovered a hideous deception lasting years it would be too much to bear anyway so I am now determined to be focussed on the future.
I would love to say I would forgive and forget the pain she has caused me as we will need each other and she is genuinely a lovely person but this is going to take time.
Thanks for your words Curry, they may help shape the rest of my future. [emoji120][emoji120]

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk