I want to disappear or hide in a cave underneath the earth's surface somewhere.... or move to another planet and live all by myself.... away from people. I have had it with people, and their relentless need to judge and hurt other people. My appearance is like a big bull's eye to people around me, sometimes i think i'm getting along with my 'friends' and they've gotten used to my appearance (They know me for 3 years now), until they have something hurtful to say to me. Maybe they think it's not a big deal to joke about, but they DON'T know how it makes me feel.

I don't have anyone to talk to, or comfort me. My mother freaks out when I show any signs of wanting some comfort from her, she'd rather I keep quiet than tell her about my depression, because in her world, it's not possible for me to be depressed.

I am trying to do my best to stay healthy, fix myself and ignore what others have to say, but it's a neverending, unrelenting battle. I've been bullied all myself in some way or form, and it just never stops for me.