August 24 from 'Daily Reflections'

A RIDDLE THAT WORKS

It may be possible to find explanations of spiritual experiences such as ours, but I have often tried to explain my own and have succeeded only in giving the story of it. I know the feeling it gave me and the results it has brought, but I realize I may never fully understand its deeper why and how.
AS BILL SEES IT, p. 313

"I had a profound spiritual experience during an open A.A. meeting, which led me to blurt out, 'I'm an alcoholic!' I have not had a drink since that day. I can tell you the words I heard just prior to my admission, and how those words affected me, but as to why it happened, I do not know. I believe a power greater than myself chose me to recover, yet I do not know why. I try not to worry or wonder about what I do not yet know; instead, I trust that if I continue to work the Steps, practice the A.A principles in my life, and share my story, I will be guided lovingly toward a deep and mature spirituality in which more will be revealed to me. For the time being, it is a gift for me to trust God, work the Steps and help others."

I'm glad I decided to post these every day because its helping me remember to read them lol. Anything in quotes is from the books, not my words. I really like the question asked in here, the why did I get chosen to recover question. I struggled with that in early recovery. The why me question...why was I chosen to be given this gift? It was like survivor's guilt. My sponsor pointed out that no one is "chosen", its more that we can all have it, but we each individually have to "chose" it for ourselves.