One thing to remember is that recovery is a long slow process. You get better incrementally, not huge bounds at a time. (Tho it could happen, as in a sudden understanding or break through.)

I know it doesn't seem fair that the people who screwed you up go on about their business and you are left to try to deal with the damage, and it's not, but you can't change them, you can only change you. Forgiveness is for you, not the others. It is letting go of the bad feelings inside of you. It does not mean the abuse didn't happen or that it was really ok for them to do it. And it certainly doesn't mean that you go around them for more abuse. It means that you are healing yourself in spite of the past and present.

Be kind to yourself. Be patient. Don't beat yourself up for mistakes. Stay away from things and people that cause negative emotions. And above all, keep trying. You are a survivor!