I've been wanting to say this for awhile because I used to post here often, but...

It's getting where I can't tell where one condition ends and another begins, or what symptom belongs to what.

Like mood swings, I've got automatic mood swings that work like clock work....you can almost mark a day with it- a 3.5 day cycle, a total of 10 days or so to go from stabile to down to up to stabile....repeat: bipolar. I've also got moody Others that jump in and out at random. It's a different kind of depression, but after a bit of time, it all feels the same. These are the moods that the anti-d doesn't affect.

Then there are the individual personalities that are extremely happy, ADD, Borderline, excitable, young...

I feel like a blob of MI.

So as much as I want to say "hey...me too!" I hesitate and say "maybe?"

The automatic mood swings are treated with meds and are stabile, but this hodgepodge is making me question any/all of it leading to a want to to quit meds just to see....which is scary to me, like jumping back into the fire.

The DID is real, but after that, nothing is real anymore. I just want to quit.

Thanks for listening.

- Feeling so done