Hello Soliaree. I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. Have you tried experimenting with public speaking at home. Such as writing certain things down that you would like to say to others to make yourself known. such as Mrs Smith says Hello how are you today? for example, then you can pretend that you are talking to Mrs Smith and then a lot of the panic is unnecessary because you have already had the experience with Mrs Smith or any other female asking the same question in the future. A lot of the panic comes from the surprise of the moment. When I am in a crowd of people I dont know I just say Hello and move on but at least I spoke to someone. The main prnciple of the practice is speaking and moving on to the next person, or situation to help kee the panic at a minimum. staying in one spot toolong is generally the trigger for social anxiety, and feeling safe enough to move to another person. Practicing saying things in private will help you from getting caught up in the surprise of not knowing what to say. Also I take meds when I have to go out and feel the need to be extra calm. It sounds silly somewhat I know but it truly helps, I have done this for years mentally to help prepare myself for when I have to give speeches in public and it has helped greatly with the panic and anxiety. I hope things get better for you. Take care. Soidhonia