I question my bipolar II dx almost all day everyday. I research borderline PD & think to myself, um this sounds like me too! & they're treatment approaches are almost polar opposites! There's some schools of thought that suggest borderline & bipolar may well occur together much of the time or even be one in the same, this is mainly in regards to "softer" bipolar dx's on the spectrum though. But trust in the psychiatrist. They have the all important clinical experience. I can dx myself with almost anything if I read the symptom list but they know how the symptoms express themselves.

Going off meds when hypomanic, I can relate to that. One moment I'm like I'm not even sick why the hell am I taking meds that flatten me out & stop taking them. Next few days I start having auditory hallucinations & SH & it's like oh right, I am sick. The hypomania is deceiving & very self destructive. It feels to good to trust it, others look at you with concern & in the back of my mind I know, but it's like **** it. Dangerous but intoxicating & I often feel like life's not worth it without that intoxicating feeling of risk & hedonism.