I'll just apply the trigger but I'm not sure if this would trigger any of you.

After learning during my last session, that my family and my husband are against me, I'm left with who can I trust besides my T?

I haven't slept well since the session. I have this fear that my husband is going to run off with my son or hurt me to get rid of me.

I managed to get him to admit yesterday that he did in fact have conversations with my mom. He said he didn't realize this would cause a ripple effect in my family. That is a flat out lie. He knows how my family is and how they feel about me.

I still struggle with why? what the heck am I doing that is so bad?

I have a great full time job, I'm not doing drugs or drinking excessively, I love my son and do as much as I can for him.

I do have cyclothymia and ADD so I know that I can be hard to be around but I'm working on that.

I just feel the urge to take our savings and just go with my son. I could go to a hotel first maybe.

I actually slept part of last night in our walk in closet. I've done that before once. It's something I used to do as a teenager because my mom threatened to come in my room while I was sleeping and scratch up my face, she said then no one would think I was beautiful.

She admitted this in therapy with my T earlier this week. I think it is having more of an impact on me than I realized.