I hate to sound like a broken record, but do you take any medications and/or see a therapist?

Now that I got that out of the way, I empathize with you. I've had similar jobs where I wake up and just don't even want to bother. What's the point, you hate it and most of them hate you too. Yea, I've had that feeling and it lead to my first inpatient stay after downing a bottle of pills. And lately I've been having that what's the point, everyone hates me just as much as I hate myself buzz in the back of my head. Although I do not have the yearning to die anymore, I tend to ruminate over worthlessness and hopelessness these days, I've had a taste of stability and happiness. And so I keep going despite how miserable I feel. I took a shower today after five days, only because I had to go into work today. Trash is piling up, dishes are piling up, but I don't give a ****, I don't want even wanna take care myself because I don't care anymore. But in time this will subside despite the fact that I can't see it. So I just deal. I know this won't cure your feelings of death, but you're not alone. I've been there. In the meantime try and see a therapist and/or a psychiatrist. It does help even though it takes a few weeks. Your life is worth living even though you don't see it. The fact that you are making this post is a sign that you have even an ounce of wanting to live.