Honesty and sharing our ups and downs is actually helpful to them. Getting to 'observe' a swing. Try to be at peace with yourself until you can get factual info. Try not to solve issues in your head that aren't yours (the amount of drs and stress on the staff).

Of course, i would be totally tripping too, unable to sleep - possibly cause myself to trigger. So what is easy for me to say, isn't easy for me to do.

You are not alone.