Hey guys, so I have been bipolar since I can remember and I have been diagnosed by a PDOC as bipolar. I know that I am bipolar because I experience full on MANIA! I get the euphoria, my mind plays tricks on me, i get a case of the giggles, I get racing thoughts, and impusivity, and hyper sexuality, and the list goes on. I have been manic for a couple weeks now.

I have been seeing a therapist and he has brought up themes to me like abandonment and he says that I have issues finding my identity and etc... I only feel these themes slightly when I am depressed. In our last session he asked me to fill out a form and it asked me if I have ever had Dialectical therapy and I had no clue what that is.

Ironically, I was talking to my friend and she was telling me about this person and I immediately recognized the person as having Borderline Personality Disorder (I know alot) and then that is where it hit me that my therapist thinks that i have BPD and not bipolar but I know for sure that I dont. I mena I keep seeing this dialectical therapy stuff having to do with BPD.

Like I stated above, my mood swings last for weeks and they arn't always affected by people in my life. As for abandonment its not a common theme in my life. In fact looking back i don't feel abandoned at all. My identity is weird because I am gay. I feel like i have to hide the fact that I am gay from certain people.

I just dont like that my therapist kinda brings up these themes that every one faces at some point in their life and now hes thinking I have BPD.I almost feel like he manipulated me into agreeing that these themes are curretn in my life. When it comes to relationships, I am not clingy at all and I just don't like when the person turns out to be a total psycho. Its wierd now too becasue I was seeing this guy for a few weeks and HE IS DEF BORDERLINE. I know for sure that I dont have BPD, I just feel like hes going to say that me reacting this way is BPD or that I am in denial or he is going to be mad at me. I didnt want to start any drama or make him belive that there I was feeling stuff that I wasnt.

It's so messed up.

Has anyone else had to deal with stuff like this?

Thanks.