Hey everyone, new member here. I am confused as too what is going on lately. I will start out by saying I have NO history of any diseases/condtions/disorders pertaining to mental health besides minor anxiety specifically performance anxiety in the past which has been fine for the past few years. The only medication I take is an SSRI lexapro at a very low dose of 5 mg daily. The problem I am having is that I feel very dull when I feel "normal". I feel motivated and want to work and do homework and achieve great things only when I feel "SOMETHING". I VERY RARELY take tramadol and when I do I feel so much better. I am very introverted and keep to myself. I am NOT lonely and I do not feel sad or depressed. I feel fine most of the time but I never laugh I never have moments of excitement and I just feel bland. I work in the medical field and am planning to be in medical school within the next 3 years. I love what I do and I am absolutely addicted to the idea of being a doctor and helping people. I LOVE everything about medicine as far as I have seen over the past few years working as a medical assistant. I just don't feel like things are joyful. I am laid back and just don't understand why I feel so emotionless. I have a great relationship with a girl I've been with for almost four years. An awesome best friend and a loving family. What could the issue be?! I just feel like I need to "feel" something to enjoy my day. For example if I could feel like I was on a narcotic every day it would be great. Despite what you just read I have NO addiction to any drug or medication. I just want to feel something.

Thanks to anyone who has any insight on this!!