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Originally Posted by SarahSweden
Iīm 30+ and I donīt have any friends I hang out with. Iīve had a few friends but lately my closest friend had a baby and I didnīt feel we had a good friendship anymore as she was so into her family life.
Now I live by my own and my family lives quite far away. I feel a very profound loneliness and small things like seeing someone for coffee doesnīt make me feel less lonely. As Iīm an adult I donīt want to live nearer my parents to hang out with them more, they arenīt my "friends" so to speak. Iīve tried to build my own life but Iīve ended up lonely.
As I live by myself in a large town I feel I have nobody. I have nobody to go home to, no dinners or such. I have never had a partner and that also makes me lonely.
I just began studying a course at the university but I feel my loneliness is so profound Iīll always feel lonely even if the loneliness may be lessened for some short periods.
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Me me me and me every second . I never get a break I lose sleep I lose my own mind chasing and losing people never feeling good enough my loneliness is what hits me the most . that what messes me up I wish people talk I wish I could do better or get something I want accomplishe . Like you said it's circular unavoidable mostly and very hard to get out of even a short time helps a lot in the moment but either makes you feel lonely or lonelier hating where you're at not ever sure how to get out of here? Please remind me.
Every day I see myself and look at how stupid I must be not being successful at friendships relationships with anyone and even feeling cared about my family.
When people really don't hold back their indifferent attitude towards you because of their own issues or the fact they are a disappointment of a friend and human you wish you can connect but can't.
I would give everything up to feel like I matter I would rather choose to be broke suffering in all kinds inhumabe ways just to experience that for my whole life. What you described has consumed my every day my existence and my being? I never felt someone loved me even when people think I'm lying my feelings aren't lying to me and I know what I'm seeing.