Ok, so what are you going to do with this ideology? You have limitless options on how to live your life. Forget what anyone else thinks of you. You can get off the hamster wheel at any moment and make your destiny.
There are people who go live off the grid in solitude, backpack around the world with only the clothes in a rucksack and their ingenuity, study plants in the rainforest, help the poor in the city of joy in India, join the circus, write a novel, make great art and I can guarantee that there are many people in your community living their lives out of the ordinary, as they please.
Twice in my life I have stepped off the hamster wheel of supposed success. I reexamined what I really wanted and needed out of life and set a new course. Everything doesn't automatically work out. I haven't been an immediate success. Yes, some people think my life is odd. Whatever. I have a life with meaning that I choose. I can breathe deep and take in a unique view. I have not only a say in the track of my life, I have the final say.
I would urge you to explore the myriad of ways that people choose to live life in extraordinary ways. Then, see what life appeals to you.
In many ways, your ideology is shared by others and is a great gift. You can be free to live your life exactly as you please and perhaps do some extraordinary things along the way.

DW