I had group therapy yesterday. The start of group was a check-in. There were 3 other members there. Mainly one of them was talking over everyone. When it came to my turn, I decided I would finally speak up in the moment and I said "I feel cut off by group members some of the time". The main person who was doing it, broke down crying. I really didn't mean for it to be personal against her. I know she was having a bad day. But I was feeling cut off by her and others. I apologized, but the T had me keep talking about how I felt. So the person put on her sunglasses, wrapped herself in her jacket and sat there in silence for 20mins. Then she interrupted the T and said she had something to say. She went on to attack me saying she's not sorry for how I feel, it's my fault I felt cut off because I could have chosen to talk over, it's not her fault she uses her voice and I don't, etc. It was horrible. And just 30mins earlier I was telling the group how I've been in a state of depression for 2 months, can barely stay awake, and am having hopelessness thoughts.

The T did stand up for me and even told her she was coming across as attacking. But he let me leave crying. Thankfully, the other two members were leaving when I left and they comforted me and calmed me down enough so I was safe to go home. They told me to give the person some grace because she really had been suffering a lot lately. And I agree, but I shouldn't have to fear my safety. What if those 2 members didn't leave at the same time? What if they didn't stop to help? I was in a really bad state afterwards.

I don't know what to do now. Go back to group? Forgive and hope it doesn't happen again? Idk. I don't want to be attacked again.