So, I have been dealing with a monkey on my back for awhile now, it is just causing me allot of grief. It is my family business, my lack of my Dads communication, his "my way or the highway" attitude, his- dumping all in my lap and forgetting about it attitude. I am so stressed out. Our business is extremely stressful and the main issue is i am in charge of personal things, and they like to just dump in my lap. well, if i disapear, they will not know what hit them. Everyone always pretending like its fine! I had enough and started to send my resume around today. I will take it as a sign if someone asks me for an interview.

Yes i get time off as needed and yes i can work at home, yes he puts me in classes/school, but in a normal job setting one does not have to put up with the nonsense that i do. I am so torn. i have been in tears daily over this BS

i had a melt down in DBT class last week when talking about my experience here.

the way my dad runs things- so 'loosey goosey'... it just doesnt work! I know he is smart man, and i am pretty sure he is mentally ill too, (Im convinced BP is on his side).... but i can not take it anymore. On top of which, i feel trapped here and even if i find some other job- my dad still might insist i come in part time or after hours to help. I have a big family, i help everyone do everything. i am a substitute mother and offer worker. i feel so USED

While i am in the office completely alone in the basement- he is cooking away all the time, that is, when he is not MIA upstate at his hunting playground (which in fairness he does let us use at will... anyhow)- I have no idea what to do. I have contacted my uncle who also works with us, b/c the stress is so bad for me. I need to know if there is hope on the horizon. (we are hugely in debt right now, our customer is extremely slow to pay- so on top of that being a issue, there is the personal bills that are piling and piling....)

You know, at the end of the day, yes my parents love me, i love them, but i feel like my whole entire life i am working, with, helping, doing something for them. Yes when i got married first marriage they paid for everything. But i dont even know what its like to have parents who dont need something from you all the time.

:'(

If i ever have a family- i'll be damned if i need my kids to survive this way. It isn't fair to think of your kids as your personal worker bees, even if you do pay them. Thank god my other siblings have learned by my mistakes. They are doing their own thing and they are chasing their dreams which makes me so happy.