It looks like nobody's updated this in a while, so I thought I would.
I was just wondering how everyone was doing. It seems like we have a fair amount of people struggling lately.
I wonder if it's the weather? Where I'm at the weather's not great. Very short days, dark and dreary a lot and the weather affects my mood and everything else a lot. I've been using my sun lamp and it seems to maybe be starting to help.
I'm not doing great ED wise. I'm on yet another medical leave for multiple sepsis episodes (not related to my ED, but probably exacerbated my it, because my immune system generally sucks as a result of it). And I have nothing else to do other than watch Netflix, read books, clean, work-out, hope I get cleared to go back to work and soon, and obsess over my eating or lack thereof. So I'm weighing myself a billion times a day, writing every calorie down, heavily restricting etc. And I know right where this leads. And it's never, ever good, but at the same time, I need something in my life that makes sense right now and everything else is so wildly up in the air and out of control and my eating is my fall-back mechanism whenever things get crazy. I can't seem to help myself. I am trying to stop this from becoming a full blown relapse because they get worse everytime and one of these times, I'm just not going to live through it. And I know that, but....it's still so hard.

So today, I'm going to try to focus on something, anything other than my ED and spend some time working on things that will further my career and take care of some health issues/get some testing done that should have been taken care of a long time ago.

How's everyone else doing? What can you do today to help yourself move away from your ED and towards where you want to be