Have been keeping so busy I don't have time to think about any ED, but I also get so busy at times I don't eat because I don't take time or will throw together some soup. I need to clean out my refrig so I can find the food I do have in there & prepare some good healthy foods.

I find it so easy to just NOT eat when I get busy & I've been so busy since last August when I was caring for 3 stallions that had been abused. Cleaning stalls 2 times a day & doing all the heavy work involved with their care, I didn't have to worry about calories or gaining weight.....it wore everything off that I did eat & many times we went out to eat after working so that was basically my one good meal a day as I was too tired when I got home to do anything except fall in bed or try to catch up on some easy things needing done around my own farm. I gained NOTHING over Christmas holiday even with all the get togethers I went to.......the thing is that after having oral surgery last March & having all my teeth removed & not being able to tolerate dentures because they make me throw up, eating isn't the easiest thing in the world....I have to puree everything I eat if it's not soft like meat loaf or salmon that flakes into small bites....eating is just a LOT OF WORK that isn't all that fun any more....& the migraines are back & bothering me after the oral surgery & the lowering of the pain medication dose I was on & the treatment only works for a couple of weeks now where it was working for almost a month before the surgery.

Grumble grumble....but I still push through it all & enjoy everything else that is part of my life that I finally love compared to where I was when my anorexia was bad back in 1995/6-1998 & then again in 2004-7 when I finally left my H & escaped to the farm I bought 2100 miles away to start life over...best thing I have ever done in my life & living alone keeps me making sure that I don't go without food the way I had been doing......animals that depend on me to be functional are a really huge part of staying healthy & caring about living is another.