I read ur posts often wanderlust and I feel for you big time... I have for most of my life been diagnosed with trMD and BPD (also GAD and trauma and dissociation).... but and alternative Dx of BP2 has also followed me around. I have been through the gauntlet of failed med attempts! Been on practically every thing.... most just made my depression worse. The last few years I have been being on a controversial regiment of Adderall and klonopin.. it's not ideal by any means but as long as I keep myself to a strict schedule, remember to eat and make to do lists to focus on..it keeps me outta of my head and negative thinking.. Most days I actually get some stuff accomplished! This past week I just had Latuda added on. So far so good... fingers crossed! I guess what I'm trying to say is keep the faith! and know ur not alone in frustration.