Last night I finally was able to take the valium that I've needed (and had sitting beside me but no orders for) and while at first it seemed like I wasn't going to fall asleep I was suddenly sound asleep. My cat woke me about 7 as is usual and instead of being awake for hours (lately I've been falling asleep closer to 5 and then up for 3 hours at 6-7; usually I can feed her and fall asleep in 3 minutes) I was only up 30 minutes and I slept until 11. I didn't read the clock right and thought I'd slept 12 hours but 9 was still pretty great compared to a few. Then I was up a while and slept another 2 hours and have spent a much, much calmer afternoon reading online and feeling slightly sedated which is nice for one day.

The mixed stuff is still very much here but it is finally sedated into background noise for a bit and I am so glad for that. I didn't know how many more days of flying everywhere I could take without at least a little break. Now I have to go watch my mom's dogs so things will probably be a little less calm for a while but I'm still tired enough to not care so much.

Sleep is a wonderful thing.