The beginning of my life, where I was betrayed by everyone especially my parents as a 4 to 6 year old. I couldn't tell you how confusing and painful that is when you had no body to go to because everyone you trusted hurt you badly.

That I would be like most kids, where my parents would have the balls and try to get to the bottom of what's going on asking me how my day was, and asking me if I'm doing alright or that listening to me.

That what would go right is my mom wouldn't had put us in so much debt losing our house lives and food. That I could go to school be with friends more and more and had been able to learn how to drive make mistakes when I'm young and not now when I'm a young adult that I should of learned then, but never had the chance to.

That I had the opportunity to make amends and save money for myself and learn a better self esteem of myself the one the people do see and compliment me on. That even if I was a teen dad that I have my child her with me.

That my grandma didn't die of starvation and she died peacefully from alzheimers that my family didn't get all drama over nothing. That I could go back and relive every day as I grew up having what it's like to feel apart of a family like many people I know who take it for granted.

That I had the resources to better my life and not just survive.

That I had the knowledge and strength earlier to know when someone goes wrong in a relationship before. That I would never have to look at myself in the mirror and wonder how many pounds I've lost.

That I would make my parents happy I'm around. That they be more open about how they feel about me.

That I could of been like those kids in my school who didn't know what heartache and pain was like and just living life to the fullest because they were lucky it was given to them.

Many days I could see myself having what I always wanted when I got older I wanted a new family, my friends that I'm close to, my SO their family and what's left of mine. That I don't fear my death because I had a life that felt worth living not something that was never given to me, it's like I'm given a chance to make it better when everything is taken from me so I have to work with nothing.

That I could make a difference in the world and show people directly how much I care about them. That I would help people in need who are more unfortunate than me. That I would go so far to even adopt some children who are orphans that I would go as far as putting myself in danger to make sure someone feels safe. I wanted to do everything in my power to make sure people aren't unhappy anymore. That I could make those choices, because I know exactly how I would go about it.

That if I could go back I would of hugged everyone I hurt and told them why I acted that way and didn't want to hurt them and that I show I have a big heart, and that people really shouldn't feel bad for me. That I chose be a better person because I really care about other people even if they don't for me.