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Originally Posted by BudFox
musinglizzy: What triggered the abrupt change in your T's behavior? I experienced termination and subsequent ceasing of all contact in a similar way -- deeply shaming, destabilizing, and traumatizing.
I also felt the terrible confusion of having been injured by the T but feeling overwhelming attachment too. My rational mind was saying get away this is terribly unhealthy, but unconscious child mind was consumed with neediness.
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Budfox, my T said this was not her "modality," but that she did it to help me trust her more and not feel so alone. She said when she thought I was to the point where I could sit there on my own, she changed it. This was after 5 months. She said it could foster dependency, and she wanted to stop before it got to that point. Honestly, I've had people help me see that it was more that she actually was feeling too attached to ME. Her actions made me think so. And then she either consulted with someone, or realized it, and backed off. There is a whole post on this, called "touch in therapy...it's gone" that includes some Emails from her as well. She was going through a rough time with her teenager, and I almost feel like she was getting from me what she wasn't getting from her angry teenager at the time.