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Originally Posted by ennui.
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I feel like I don't belong in this world... like I was supposed to be aborted.
I wish I could give up. But love is really the only thing I want in life. I feel like I'll never have it though. Quite frankly, if I'm going to live a life without love then I just want to die now instead of enduring the long and lonely future that awaits me.  |
I've thought about these things so often too... I think I was actually supposed to go through with suicide when I was 13 -- I don't think I'm supposed to be here now. And all too often I think I'd rather just end it now and save myself all the pain of loneliness in the future. But that feels like such a waste of a life! I keep telling myself I just have to push through it and enjoy whatever I can but... it's really hard sometimes.
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If only real life could be as beautiful as fiction...
Diagnosis: Social Anxiety Disorder, Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, possible Autism Spectrum Disorder
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