I'm sure sexual fetish issues have been covered plenty of times before. But I've suddenly become overwhelmed with guilt and shame about mine, so I just need some reassurance that I'm not a sick person or an awful person.

From a young age, I was turned on by bondage scenes in the movies I would watch. I would even gag myself and rubber band my hands and legs in my room as a child. This was long before I understood what a fetish was or even masturbation.

As I started masturbating, I masturbated to plenty of conventional stuff, but I also found myself starting almost every masturbation session with a bondage scene from the animated Aladdin. I don't know why this particular scene was/is so appealing to me but it was. I always felt disgusted by what I was doing on some level, but never enough to make myself stop. Just recently, the shame hit me and it was overwhelming. I'm now 22 years old and I feel like it's really bizarre that I have masturbated for so long to the same scene from an animated movie. I'm going to try to stop using it because it seems like it's almost an addiction of some sort. Being dependent on one specific video is probably not healthy.

I understand that bondage is a common sexual fetish, but my particular experience seems like it might be unique. I just feel totally disgusted and ashamed. Like if people found out that I got off to a scene from a children's movie and used it over and over again, what would they think of me? I'm also a completely heterosexual male which is weird that I find a male bondage scene erotic. And in general, I'm very conventional in my sexual desires, I don't really even look at porn, just some mild sex scenes from movies.

Sorry for being redundant. I just don't know why but my sudden realization of my abnormality has plunged me into a severe bout of anxiety/guilt/shame/depression. Any helpful words would be appreciated.