Me too. And of course mirtazapine isn't supposed to be a stabilizer at all. It just seemed to give me one crucial year that I don't think I would have had well, honestly I wouldn't have had if my pdoc at the time hadn't died. Because I didn't want to stay on mirtazapine b/c of weight gain (5 whole lbs...little did I know) and sedation but then he died suddenly and there wasn't a psychiatrist to change things.

I know that sometimes people are able to come off a lot of meds when they get on clozaril. The current plan is to keep it low dose and keep my extra meds but I'm hoping that I'll be able to get rid of gabapentin and topamax eventually since both are low dose and just add a little bit of calm to my life. I guess we'll see. I can't imagine taking less than a huge handful of pills every night plus 1 1/3 patch. Some of my handful will leave with Seroquel so soon I'll have less to deal with. I can't even imagine what it will be like for pill box filling time to not be dreaded because it takes so long.