I can relate to you, but my mind is reacting the opposite way that yours is. I watched my dad and fiance battle cancer at the same time for 4 years, then I watched them waste away over a two week period; one in March and the other in July of 2014.

I feel like I am dying all of the time. I have anxiety, physical depression, panic attacks and agoraphobia. My psychiatrist calls it PTSD as well. I don't know how to make all of the symptoms stop. I am just so afraid to go through what they went through, I can't seem to keep myself out of the doctors office or hospital. I feel like I can't trust their diagnosis.

Good luck at recovering from your loss. I am trying with everything that I have everyday to get better. I hope you can too.