Thanks. Part of my problem is that for some strange reason, I feel guilty about what happened. I really start feeling bad when it affects my relationship w/my fiance. He doesn't blame me,(of coarse), but it hurts me when I can't "respond" to some of his affection because of what some creep did 10yrs. ago! I have a "new" thaerapist this year (4th in 18 months) and I see her Mon. I don't know how she's going help me. The "guilt" is new to me. I try to rationalize it logically, but my emotions take over quickly. As much as the people in my life love and support me, I still feel so very alone.