There are some days where I think that I don't really have bipolar and that I must be trivialising my mood swings. Do you ever get that thought? Sometimes I think my mental health team are very wrong but every time I somehow show doubt they say I really need to take my medication and if I stop them I'll get really ill. A lot of the time I really don't want to take my medication anymore. It feels really pointless and stupid. I feel fine. They think I am heading into mania but I am just doubting everything they say to me. It's not true. It is not the truth. It still embarrasses me to even mention to my new boss that I have been diagnosed with bipolar. I wish to have no label but I have the label for life now.

My mother thinks I am out of my mind and need to go into hospital. She said she will phone the mental health team as a threat. I told her she wouldn't and I was right. But I'll be seeing them on the 25th. Sometimes I wish I was never involved with this mental health team. I just wonder what my life would of been like without them. No medication no nothing.

Surely I'm not the only one who thinks like this?