Hey roses,

I am glad you are back at PC. Sorry you are struggling. Even after lots of clear evidence, I can still daydream and tinker with the idea that I am not really bipolar. I can look back at my clear manic episodes and try and rationalize them as just lack of sleep or high stress or something and not really caused by bipolar.

I usually catch myself pretty quickly and go back into acceptance mode. The stakes are high for me with my sons and family depending on me. I am stable and doing well, so I cannot risk entertaining these thoughts. I am also old and had my butt kicked by bipolar too many times to really believe that I don't have it.

Hang in there and keep posting.

moogs