Sometimes I feel like a freak in bp community. I like taking my meds. I mean they can be a pain in the *** to remember 3 times a day at set intervals. I have alarms on my iPhone at all times. However I don't want to have the symptoms of bipolar, mania or depression. If meds can help those or even halt them, heck yeah I'll take them. I would take more and even more frequently, if my psych dr thought they would help.
Perhaps I am a fearful person. Stories I hear in the psych hospital scare me, arrests, exposure to danger with high risk activities, losing friends and family, etc.
yes, shopping was my self-medication. I loved it. But now I look at my credit card bill that I have to pay off and book myself another therapy appointment. I don't ever want to be so reckless again.
I have been on psych meds for 17 years. I freely acknowledge I will most likely take them the rest of my life. I am ok with that.
I want to be sane, safe, and stable. I don't want to have to deal with fall out of mania or the crush of the depression.
As I said, though, I seem to be an oddity in the bp.