
Jan 21, 2016, 01:35 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2014
Location: jakevill
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Originally Posted by DesigningWoman
Sometimes I feel like a freak in bp community. I like taking my meds. I mean they can be a pain in the *** to remember 3 times a day at set intervals. I have alarms on my iPhone at all times. However I don't want to have the symptoms of bipolar, mania or depression. If meds can help those or even halt them, heck yeah I'll take them. I would take more and even more frequently, if my psych dr thought they would help.
Perhaps I am a fearful person. Stories I hear in the psych hospital scare me, arrests, exposure to danger with high risk activities, losing friends and family, etc.
yes, shopping was my self-medication. I loved it. But now I look at my credit card bill that I have to pay off and book myself another therapy appointment. I don't ever want to be so reckless again.
I have been on psych meds for 17 years. I freely acknowledge I will most likely take them the rest of my life. I am ok with that.
I want to be sane, safe, and stable. I don't want to have to deal with fall out of mania or the crush of the depression.
As I said, though, I seem to be an oddity in the bp.
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Well I think what happens is many times bp ppl feel better or start to go euphoric hypo and really think they are OK and don't need the meds. Has happened to me
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I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
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