I am constantly tired and sleeping when I am depressed. That said, I usually (if I can fight the urge created by my meds) try to stay up and wallow in sad music and in my own saddness. I think it makes me feel more alive to at least experience saddness (even though it is pitiful). It has never created mania or hypomania that I am aware of, but I have woke up in a state of panic, catching myself pacing and shaking while brushing my teeth.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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