Sunny, I didn't know whether to smile or cry at your post! There was so much of me in what you are experiencing right now. I too am having feelings close to the surface, trouble sleeping etc etc.... So at my last T session she said also said that she thought I was angry. Like you I don't have any experience expressing that or any models from my family to fall back on. My T tried to get me to talk about things that I'm angry about, mostly in relationship to my marriage and pending divorce. I don't know if she does EMDR so I don't know the purpose of the list or how to help you with that, but she was definately trying to verbally get me to list out things that made me angry in the past. I'll be interested to hear how your next session goes.

I did like how your T gave you the option of what to do. I actually left my last T session angry at my T. I felt like she pushed to much in the session and we were kind of all over the place without making progress. The result was I left more angry that I started and didn't know what to do with it. It think the result was my anger was displaced from my husband to her. And now she's gone for 2 weeks, so who knows what I'll feel like sharing with her when she's back a week from Tuesday!