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Originally Posted by RomanJames2014
Hey guys, so I have been bipolar since I can remember and I have been diagnosed by a PDOC as bipolar. I know that I am bipolar because I experience full on MANIA! I get the euphoria, my mind plays tricks on me, i get a case of the giggles, I get racing thoughts, and impusivity, and hyper sexuality, and the list goes on. I have been manic for a couple weeks now.
I have been seeing a therapist and he has brought up themes to me like abandonment and he says that I have issues finding my identity and etc... I only feel these themes slightly when I am depressed. In our last session he asked me to fill out a form and it asked me if I have ever had Dialectical therapy and I had no clue what that is.
Ironically, I was talking to my friend and she was telling me about this person and I immediately recognized the person as having Borderline Personality Disorder (I know alot) and then that is where it hit me that my therapist thinks that i have BPD and not bipolar but I know for sure that I dont. I mena I keep seeing this dialectical therapy stuff having to do with BPD.
Like I stated above, my mood swings last for weeks and they arn't always affected by people in my life. As for abandonment its not a common theme in my life. In fact looking back i don't feel abandoned at all. My identity is weird because I am gay. I feel like i have to hide the fact that I am gay from certain people.
I just dont like that my therapist kinda brings up these themes that every one faces at some point in their life and now hes thinking I have BPD.I almost feel like he manipulated me into agreeing that these themes are curretn in my life. When it comes to relationships, I am not clingy at all and I just don't like when the person turns out to be a total psycho. Its wierd now too becasue I was seeing this guy for a few weeks and HE IS DEF BORDERLINE. I know for sure that I dont have BPD, I just feel like hes going to say that me reacting this way is BPD or that I am in denial or he is going to be mad at me. I didnt want to start any drama or make him belive that there I was feeling stuff that I wasnt.
It's so messed up.
Has anyone else had to deal with stuff like this?
Thanks.
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My talk therapist once asked why I kept going to her. I was already diagnosed with bipolar, and taking meds with another Dr. why did I need a talk therapist.
A few months later she talked to me about borderline personality disorder. She decided after awhile I had that, even though I wasn't really abused and didn't cut.
I wonder if insurance companies are questioning why people need talk therapists? Because since bipolar technically can be treated with a med, but borderline personality disorder needs a talk therapist - maybe the therapist (or insurance company) feels that there is some tangible road to better mental health if they are on the road of borderline personality disorder?
Anyway, BPD is still on my record. But at this time I feel I am on a plateau and do not need a talk therapist. I am doing fine with my meds.