I've been thinking about this for awhile to understand my multipleness.

First, if I remember right...the conscience lies in the forward part of the brain. This is where humans think, make decisions, is aware, and thrive when awake. The rest of the brain is donated to memory storage, autonomous functions, and subconscious experiences.

With that said, I hope this makes sense...

Prior to the "The Great Awakening"- our conscious acceptance and awareness of our multipledom, the "I" (the body's living singular identity) was a living illusion involuntarily created from early childhood and born out of unawareness. Each of the "Others" (alters) conscious ran through this area (co-conscious) giving the system a single identity in mind and thought. "I" was self-aware as a singleton.

"I" was a unified collaboration of a supposed single self taken as each alters own at the alter's time of presenting. "I" was shared through the Others unknowingly, an endless string of thoughts, ideas, experiences, all linked into a singular life timeline. We silently and anonymously did our tasks like we ever did since birth. Eventually though, we were in voluntary system wide denial which lead to having forgotten our true identity after we began to be aware 35 years ago. "I" chose this because we didn't want to be self-outed as a system... to stay hidden so that we viewed "I" as normal. In other words, we lied to ourselves.

"I" has privately studied psychology for 2 years at the age of 15 ("I" has/had smarts- all honour courses in school w/3.6 GPA, grad top 1/4 class of 300) in a personal quest of figuring out what was wrong with "I", then at college. All in all, "I" put in several years of study- but not a pro...just got know. (Guess who!) lol.

Through this collective thinking, "I" acknowledged that something was "off". Silently suffering, "I" experienced different head voices, changing ideas and perceptions, an ever changing head voice, missing/jumbled memories, DP/DR, time jumps, dissociation, emotional breakdowns, changing personality traits, altering likes/dislikes,...

"I" lived as an alcoholic/addict hoping to "accidentally" die, drifting from one wanton life to another over compensating in efforts of numbing the inner turmoil. "I" looked inward every now and then, but the cloud of denial hang thick and had a stomach turning/churning affect to dis-sway further investigation. "I" was confused and knew it felt/was different and couldn't put a finger on it, but continued to live on in markedly less than ignorant bliss, wondering....

"The Great Awakening"...

One night a year ago....the term "multiple personality" was uttered which triggered an extremely vivid flashback to the moment of agreed system denial umpteen years ago. The agony and pain of living for so many years led to an exasperated instantaneous system wide rejection of the denial pact. We literally lurched out of our chair, wide eyed as the curtain of darkness began to fall. All hell then broke loose (as you all unfortunately got to watch through the past year) as we came out of the fog dazed and confused...aware. (Sorry...but thank you for putting up with it!).

Let the body snatching begin as we fought over control. We eventually have worked out a system for co-existence in fairness, but it's as life dictates which some can influence and control in their favor which creates a jealous rivalry which then leads to conflict....

Upon rejecting denial and accepting our system for who we are on a multiple level, the "I" ceased to exist for we are now aware of our own individual selves, each of their own special abilities. It's traits were now recognized to be that of each of the others combined in an effort to remain hidden as created from early childhood. It's now "we", and as much as we want to...we can't go back. It's too late for us because now we have individualized and are in the know. We have come a long way baby...

We still share the conscious like we ever have, but in co-operation and a "take turn" kind of way. This is the way we work and function daily, moment to moment, instance to instance, always changing, switching to fit the present. Even though we share the conscience, we are still quite the seperated individual from each other, like our individual self lives are still quite private.

I hope this makes some sense in wording, idea and thought. It's taken me a little bit (about a year) to put this all together... a picture of our fragmented functioning mind. This was my pet project but I've about put the puzzle together and now I'll be bored, looking for something else to pick apart. This is what I do. The others don't care (some do and had a really hard time accepting and dealing with this)... this is just for me to present to a therapist or anyone else that matters to care. Or good enough to get me branded as a nut job and locked away, lol.

So, in conclusion, there is 2 views presented here. One- a living singular conscious fragmented into varying degree of parts. Or two- distinct parts that share a single conscious with varying degrees of co-consciousness. I believe we are number two.

I wish that I can say that they are all different versions of me, but we are too distinct for that as individuals. I suppose you can technically say that, but....

Thanks for reading. I hope this helps shed light on other systems functionings. I hope not to confuse, but this would be my best guess. As time passes, this realization is steadily sinking in as common place and our system for the most part is settling down. Of course what is a family without crisis and drama...we still have our moments!

If anyone has a question or correction, feel free to say or ask, I don't mind. I'll try to respond if and when I get to get back out.

Tell me about yours, it'll help me understand mine more better.