I'm new here. My first post. I have lived with depression for as long as I can remember. First started meds around 37, I'm now 55. I also have ADD, which was only diagnosed about 8 months ago but explains a lot about my childhood and I have PTSD. I currently go to therapy every other week. Can't afford any more and she only charges me half my copay. I always get depressed around the holidays and this year was worse. Started to come out of it and since New Years I've had 2 friends pass away and my house was broken into and robbed last week. They took all my jewelry and the jewelry my mom left me when she passed away. I am feeling so overwhelmed right now. I'm hoping to be able to post on a regular basis but sometimes I just feel as though I bring everyone down with my sad sob stories (and they are sad).