Three more calls and one more returned call. The returned call isn't taking new patients as he is leaving town until Mid March. I really appreciated him calling instead of leaving me hanging. Also he doesn't take my insurance, never has... So how did I get his name from the insurance website? He said sometimes insurance companies pad their list of doctors so that the provider list looks more appealing. ISN'T THAT FRAUD??

New calls: one-phone line disconnected.

two and three, left messages, using the "I'm in crisis" language that Onward suggested. No response from either.

I have a few more names to call and a suggestion from the callback on how to get a more accurate insurance list.

Thanks for the support everyone and for the suggestions Onward. Today was horrible I could barely function. I didn't even see everyone leave work and I ended up alone there after hours finishing up. I don't know how I'm going in every day. I sat in my car in the cold after locking up contemplating driving straight into traffic at high speed without stopping. Not to worry I drove home safely like I always do, I wouldn't do that, was just thinking about it.