Oh boy. It got weirder.

After my crying jag in the bathroom, I came back to my desk, e'd a couple people who wanted to know what was going on, and tried to concentrate on work, still all teary. One of the people I e'd came over, looked straight at me and said "Are you OK?" and figured the answer was no when I burst into tears. So we went on a walk around the building till I calmed down (it's a very big building).

I then had to leave for a doctor's appointment. As I was returning to work, I saw my boss leaving for the day. We're allowed several 2-hour paid blocks for doctor's appointments, so I decided to take one and go home.

About 4:45, I get a phone call from a friend here. She said she got into a big fight with my boss about me. I appreciated her standing up for me but feel bad that she's probably in trouble now.

This morning when my boss came in she wanted to know if I was OK and knew that she had my best interests at heart and cared about me and blah blah blah. I lied and said I was fine, because I want it to go away. But I'm still pretty freaked out about everything.

The big boss just came in and the first thing he did was call my boss in and close the door. The marketing guy is in there with them, and we're having big problems with an ad we ran this week, so I'm telling myself it's about that -- but it was in the marketing guy's office that the fight occurred yesterday.

I dunno. I can't come into work every day and be scared of losing my job, I know that. It's all just a mess and I'm heading for the Xanax....

Candy