First, the kitty in Bolivar's avatar is too cute. :3

Second... I don't know what I'm doing with myself. Everything feels pointless. They say to achieve something to bring up your self-esteem, but I'm not sure I could ever do enough. I'm bored, lonely (and occasionally beat myself up for that too), my life is going nowhere and I fear it never will.

Its also occurred to me I have a lot of resentment towards my mom for babying me so much my entire life, to the extent of taking pains to keep me in a childish mindset or even mildly punishing me for trying to do things myself. Can I use this as proper justification for wanting her completely out of my life and getting angry at useless phone calls and emails?