Recently, my T was going to terminate me. Then, he decided to give me one more chance with the agreement that he was going to write me a set of rules. He gave me 2 pages of very rigid and tightly suffocating rules that I feel takes away my trust, safety, and freedom to open up. Also, he said that he will be the one who decides what we discuss in sessions and I don't have any input. So what I want to talk about doesn't matter.

I think that countertransferance is playing a part in this but he won't acknowledge that idea.

I want to stay with him.

However, I decided that I'm going to take 2016 off from him and go back at the beginning of 2017 to see how things are then.

I think he just needs time and space from me.

It's all so confusing.