I'm hurting so badly. I really don't even want to live anymore. I have no hope for the future. I just go through the motions and put on fake smiles for the world.

On top of my painful life situation, the T who I thought would not abandon or hurt me, has emotionally abandoned me. He once said that he'd never give up on me. But he has.

Where did all the compassion go?

Am I really that bad of a person?