The whole "giving me another chance" thing is a really big red flag that this therapist is pulling a power trip on you. You don't have to grovel at a therapist's feet begging for another chance, changing yourself in order to meet the therapist's rules. That's all sorts of twisted and unhealthy.

He is clearly going to run his practice and his treatment of you his way, and it is pretty clear that his way hasn't been working for you lately. Advocate for yourself with a different therapist who is more able to meet you where you are; this one isn't the one from what you have shared here on PC.