This sounds like me. I would have begged my T for another chance and complied with any rules given, my heart is broken over things being over. I remember all the compassion and it hurts. All that said I think a gap is a great idea to get some space and find out that you can received compassion without having to follow rules and act a certain way. You are worthy of more than he is offering you.

Also reminded of this quote, as hard and difficult as it is "I know—better than anyone—that once someone’s made up their mind to leave you, there’s nothing you can do to make them stay.'