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Is your fear of your husband hurting you a rational or irrational one? I only ask because I have a lot of irrational fears and if yours is rational I am very concerned for you and want you to be safe.

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Probably irrational but it felt real. The thing is I'm in a state away from all my friends in Pa. I have some here but they are busy with their kids, lives etc.

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When you wrote what your mother said to you as a teenager, I hurt inside for you.

What was worse was having her admit to that to my T and hearing her say that she was jealous of me. she kept saying 'she was beautiful and I was jealous'...I don't know it became too real when she talked about it.

T didn't say anything to that part. I wish he would have.

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When is your next appointment? Could you call T to express some of your concerns?

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Next Wednesday and I'm miserable. I should have stayed a minute and talked to him. I could have sent my mom to the car. he looked surprised that I just bolted out (I never do that). I just wanted to stay with him and not go with her.

I felt like I was leaving the only safe place and person that I trust.