relationships are difficult, that's all. I'm not in love lol. That's what I'd like to think right now. Why does it make me feel bad at the same time as it feels good. I guess I think I don't do things right. I have to be okay with myself at some point. I thought I was. I'm not depressed, just needy or something. I want to ignore everything else and have some fun. But I still don't feel like I am having any.