I've been trying to make plans during the week to keep myself from isolating and worsening my depression. Last week's plan involved having a friend over on Wednesday and being a part of a road trip on Saturday (today). I volunteered to drive for the road trip so that I wouldn't be able to back out. Next Thursday is my birthday and I'm planning dinner in Manhattan... Feeling very anxious about it but hoping that forcing myself to be with people will be better than being alone.

Road trip today--cancelled due to snowstorm.

Thursday birthday--apprehensive because I don't know if I'll be able to dig my way clear to my street by then. I can shovel tomorrow and a part of Monday, but I'm supposed to be working at home on Monday and Tuesday I have to be at work even if that means hitching a ride with someone else.

If I can't dig my own car out I won't be able to go to Manhattan on Thursday. There's an event in Manhattan that is sort of a big deal and I'm piggybacking my birthday onto that to make sure I have people there.

Last Wednesday's meetup, the guy cancelled, proving that I need an extraneous event to get someone to visit me.