I suffer as well. Sometimes it is writing that helps. Sometimes I am helped by talking to my counselor. I rarely talk to a friend because I feel the struggles I have are so overwhelming that I think it is too much for a friend. Stuffing it all though hasn't helped. Might be better to let it out little by little. I try to speak with my husband but it doesn't always go well. I have many real hurts that I am aware of and I feel like they have just multiplied and gathered like a large lump. All is hard and painful to get over. Hard to know where to begin but sharing here helps.