Hello ((( Con))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. it is good however that you called your therapist. I will be in chat Tuesday afternoon if you can make some time to chat. Please try to stay safe and call your therapist if needed the hotline number is 1-800-273-TALK as well if you need someone to talk to in person. Is there someone you can call to stay with you at this time so you dont have to be alone at this time, or that can come and get you out of the house for a while? Call someone to come and stay with you at this time if needed. Take care. Soidhonia